Chương 28: System Reboot: Mind Optimization Protocol

With the new problems crashing down on my head, I had to reset my priorities from scratch, and do it ruthlessly. French, which I had been attacking so enthusiastically, went onto the back shelf along with every other mental discipline. My ambitious plan to become a universal soldier hit an unexpected obstacle, my own brain started sending distress signals. My daily routine became stripped down to the limit and purely physical.

Every morning began with the heavy smell of rubber and sweat in the gym, where I pushed my body for overall development. After lunch, I headed to parkour classes. My personal trainer there, a wiry guy who seemed to be made of nothing but tendons, did not let me jump across rooftops yet. Instead, he methodically forced me, again and again, to drill proper falling technique.

"Land softer, shift your weight, roll through it!" he barked. I obediently dropped onto the mats, trying to turn my body into a spring so I would not wreck my knees or turn my bones into dust in a real jump. Parkour had its own specific slang and trick names, but for my overheated mind it felt like a walk in the park. It had nothing in common with that hell where I forced myself to cram a thousand foreign words a day, feeling the gray matter inside my skull practically melting.

By six in the evening, I was completely free. My body ached pleasantly from fatigue, but my head demanded answers. Until deep into the night, I sat in front of the monitor, greedily consuming video lectures about memory neurons. The blue glow of the screen reflected in my eyes while another gray-haired professor on screen talked about the boundlessness of human capacity. He claimed that our brain is so vast it could hold almost all of Wikipedia.

"Sounds nice," I thought, rubbing my temples, "but in practice it is much more complicated." The human brain, for all its brilliance, has the same limits on information intake as an old computer. Trying to cram a massive amount of data in one sitting is like transferring a terabyte from a cheap flash drive onto an ancient hard disk. The process does not just drag on, it overheats the system. If you do not hit the brakes in time, the processor in your head can simply burn out.

I came across a video describing real cases of this kind of extreme learning, and a chill ran down my spine. It talked about a boy genius from Texas. At eight, he had already finished the school curriculum, and at thirteen, he graduated from the Massachusetts Institute of Technology with honors. It seemed like every door was open to him: a brilliant career at NASA, global recognition, the future of science. But reality turned out to be terrifying.

Now he is only twenty, and he is living out his days in an Alzheimer's clinic. His brain simply could not handle the pace and self-destructed, turning into mush. That example hit me like an ice-cold shower. Yes, my memory might be bottomless, but it has to be filled carefully, giving knowledge time to settle and take root. I had somehow managed to cram two foreign languages into myself in just two months, not counting a dozen other skills.

My neural connections were still intact only thanks to the invisible influence of [Trainer]. This system worked like a perfect safety fuse, protecting not only my muscles and joints from overload in the gym, but also keeping my mind from collapsing. At some point, I realized a simple truth: the brain is just another muscle. Any muscle can be overtrained or injured with the wrong approach. Before, I used a blunt command: [study a foreign language until midnight]. Now I understood how stupid and dangerous that was.

The correct instruction should sound different: [study a foreign language until optimal retention]. Yes, progress will slow down, but at least I will not wake up one day in a hospital room with an empty head and drool on my chin. I started wondering whether deleting my memories of endless, pointless forum arguments had been a mistake. After a dozen lectures, I found confirmation that I was right. It was not an act of vandalism against my own personality, it was a necessary system cleanup. The mechanics are simple.

When the brain tries to retrieve the needed information, it searches through all archives. The less junk in those archives, the faster the response. Imagine searching for a file on a computer. Where will the system find it faster: in a folder crammed with a million system logs and temporary files, or in a clean directory that holds only important documents? The answer is obvious. On top of that, getting rid of mental junk brought incredible relief.

You can endlessly justify keeping in memory the nicknames of people you will never meet, or replay arguments from fifteen years ago, thinking, "I should have answered him differently!" But in reality, it is ballast. I compare it to that broken water cooler that sat in our office for a month. It did not provide cold water, it was useless, it just got in the way and collected dust. I simply threw that "cooler" out of my head. However, I drew a clear line.

There is useless junk, and there is unpleasant but necessary experience. The things that shape your personality cannot be deleted. I still remember how in middle school I fell asleep on a bus, leaning my head against the window. The bus hit a bump, and I slammed my ear against the metal frame so hard that tears burst from my eyes. It was painful, embarrassing, and humiliating, but I will keep that experience. Because of it, I never sleep on transport anymore, that lesson is carved into my subconscious forever.

Another unshakable rule for me became a ban on interfering with early childhood memories. I barely remember details of life before school, but I know those shadows of the past lie deep in the cortex. That is where the foundation of who I am was formed. Accidentally erase some "insignificant" detail from infancy, and goodbye, Tom Ross. In his place, someone else would appear, a stranger with my face. Help support creative writers by finding and reading their stories on the original site.

After carefully weighing all the pros and cons, I arrived at three options for what to do next. Option one: drop all mental disciplines entirely. Declare a total vacation for a month, maybe more. Let the two languages fully cement themselves in memory without layering anything new on top. Schools and universities have breaks for a reason, it is a physiological necessity. This path seemed the safest and most logical. But there was one major downside, loss of time.

There was not much left before military conscription, and I valued every day. My evenings were free, and the idea of spending them watching cat videos did not appeal to me at all. Especially now, when under the supervision of [Trainer], any studying turned into a highly efficient process. Option two: continue the deep cleanup. Honestly, I understood it was not a cure-all. Clearing the memory cache did nothing to protect neurons from physical overheating, it only slightly sped up my internal processor.

The help was minimal, to be blunt, but I still did it every evening. Why? Because it brought a kind of pleasure nothing else could match. It is amazing how much toxic junk we carry with us over the years. I still clearly remember an incident from eight years ago: some pimple-faced clerk in a mobile phone shop answered me with open rudeness. I do not remember his name, I would not recognize him in a crowd, and that shop itself has long since turned into a café.

But my brain carefully preserved that stale resentment, forcing me to replay that conversation again and again. That information was completely useless, it taught me nothing new, it simply poisoned my mind while taking up precious memory space. In one of the video lectures, I came across an interesting fact: the human brain is evolutionarily wired to absorb humiliation as deeply as possible. In medieval Europe, this trait of the psyche was used as a refined punishment.

Troublemakers were not just beaten, they were stuffed into a bottomless wooden barrel with only their shoulders and legs sticking out. In that ridiculous state, they were forced to walk through the entire city. A living chain of townspeople was already waiting, armed with sticky mud and rotten eggs. Unable even to raise their hands to cover their face, the person took all of it under a chorus of laughter. After such public shame, the offender would usually just flee the city.

The humiliation became a true torture for him, a brand burned into memory that could not be ignored. For an ordinary person, this would be a lifelong trauma. But I was different. I could simply wash away that filth with an act of will, freeing up my processor resources. And I had no intention of ignoring that ability, especially since I still had two unused special commands available every day.

[Special command: delete the incident with the clerk] A click, and the weight that had been hanging somewhere on the edge of my consciousness for eight years simply vanished. A clean slate. What a rush. Option three, and probably the most promising one, was a full system upgrade. In professional terms, it is called mnemonics, or more poetically, building a Memory Palace. Right now, my knowledge resembled a massive landfill where valuable artifacts lay mixed with rusted junk.

To find anything useful, my brain had to dig through piles of trash. But if everything were organized, sorted into folders and catalogs like on a computer hard drive, retrieval would become instant. The search for a decent guide dragged on. The internet was crawling with info-business charlatans.

"Build a memory castle in a week!", "Unique special forces method in three days!" I spent hours pushing through fake, sickly sweet reviews until I finally came across the work of an old professor. The man was a legend: he spoke twenty languages fluently and could recite hundreds of classical works from memory. I bought his self-study course in digital form and devoured it over a few evenings. Essentially, the book was a highly complex set of visualization exercises.

I had to force my mind to construct a virtual storage space and learn to access any information through visual images. It felt like forcibly installing a new operating system over the old one. In the preface, the professor honestly warned that it had taken him five long years of exhausting training to fully master his method. But five years is for ordinary people. I had my trump card. My hyperfocus.

"Mom, I am really tired, I am going to lie down," I called from my room, trying to sound casual.

"Please do not come in, I just need some sleep." I dropped onto the bed, glancing briefly at the clock, exactly six in the evening. I closed my eyes, focused on the pulsing in my temples, and said mentally: [Special command: apply a mnemonic system to the mind] The surrounding world collapsed instantly, as if the power had gone out across the entire block.

In the absolute void that followed, a system notification flared up before my eyes: [The presence of the Trainer adjusts your exercises] [Mental training efficiency increased by 400%] … I came to at six in the morning with a raging thirst. My throat was dry, and my body felt unusually heavy. So the rewrite of my consciousness had taken twelve hours. Twelve hours instead of five years. I sat up on the bed, feeling a strange, ringing clarity in my head, and immediately decided to test the result.

I closed my eyes and focused. Before, my thoughts had been a chaotic swarm, but now… now I found myself in my own visual study. It was a vast, endless archive finished in dark wood. Shelves lined the walls, filled with folders, each one marked with a glowing golden label. I mentally walked over to the section labeled Spanish. Back in reality, I opened my mouth and spoke. The words flowed easily, sentences formed on their own, perfectly and smoothly.

I realized I could even think in Spanish without translating from English. I dived back inside, moved to the Portuguese shelf, and the effect repeated. More than that, my speech carried that distinct soft Brazilian accent I had heard in the video lessons. It was incredible. I could literally move these mental shelves around. I pulled hand-to-hand combat closer so every technique and combination would fire at the level of spinal reflexes.

My sniper rifle skills, on the other hand, I pushed a bit deeper, I did not need them every day, let them stay in reserve without loading my working memory. I spent some time in that archive, putting everything into perfect order and distributing the load so my brain would no longer feel like an overheated frying pan. My gaze fell on the French shelf, it was barely one tenth full. But now I felt that empty space was ready to absorb knowledge in any volume. No more overheating.

No risk of becoming a vegetable at twenty. I smiled at my reflection in the mirror. Now the title of universal soldier no longer felt like a distant dream. It had become a matter of the near future.